Today I feel dumped by the world. So I feel I must accept utter aloneness. My "self" was formed as an imposition of others, or the imprint of others. But, you know, what you infer about the indifference of others has no bottom, and your imagining of the cruelty has no end: the worst can always be exceeded by worse. Even family brings no relief, and sometimes is the most pain-inflicting of all, as the attachment is so strong.
All of this is not real. "You" are a product of birth, with the terror at separation; and the slow uneasy reconciliation of your will's desires with/against others' started even before the first time you said "no." But every other self is also trapped in the same tragedy. Let go! Give up. Abandon all hope for relief from aloneness, for social and psychological completeness, safety, security, mercy, acceptance, unconditional love. These are not in others, not giveable by others, not found in anyone. These are too large for anyone to provide you or for you to provide anyone else.
Give up on all these! Cut the strings, and let yourself fall. Expectations, hopes, all - just cut the strings. No person will catch you. Your being will catch you! The universe had the immense interest in you to manifest as you. Think of the odds! Don't look to people for anything. We are all lost! Look to the universe that created you. Nobody else did. If the universe were indifferent, why and how are you here? The universe *is* without cause, and it creates! And only creation is necessary and sufficient in and of itself for completeness. Only creation from nothing (!), and for no other reason than to create, is unconditional love. It's all good, baby! Love!
Gabriel Fenteany, November 28, 2015
